Gosh, it's been ages since i last wrote in here! Even though i come on here every day and nosey at what everyone else is doing with their lives :P 
So i'm back in lesta now, have been for the past 2 weeks! It's really nice to be back, and im not homesick at all-although i do miss the family and my friends back home. And as I think most of you know by now I have a new boyfriend! Although i hate that..'new' boyfriend. His name is Rob and he's 22 and he's just started his 4th year at Manchester University studying MATHS. he is very clever, and we hit it off straight away, we went on our first date just after my birthday and at the time i was a bit like 'hmmm i like him but i dont want anything out of this before uni' but before i knew it the first date turned into a second one and then another and then seeing him at Leeds Fest and then more dates and ahhhhhh! Then we got a talking and decided to see what happened when we both got back to uni. But then we went out for his birthday, had a few drinks and then he ended up asking me to be his girlfriend so i was like KK! Its happened really fast and everything, and some people might not understand how quickly you can fall in love but HELLO IM DOING IT NOW AND ITS CRAZY BUT I LOVE IT. We get along so well, it feels like we've known each other years and omg he's so good to me.he's so kind and sweet and considerate and i trust him 110% and OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I JUST LOVE HIM ALREADY :| He came to Lesta for a few days last week and we just had the best time and then we were lying in bed and i just went 'Rob.......' and he went 'yes?' and i went 'nothing...i just really really like you. a lot.' and then there was this big silence and he just went 'I love you' and i didnt know what to say cos i was like omg we've been together not even a week yet but that was the only thing holding me back from saying it really, and who cares? SO I WAS LIKE I LOVE YOU TOO. :D and I DO. I haven't felt like this for ages. Or ever. Like, i hate comparing relationships but it's different this time, i feel like our feelings for each other are equal and just so intense! Whereas with Daniel, it was about 5 months before i even dared say it, and things sorta progressed slowly. And also...he was a dick. So that's also a MASSIVE difference :P

ohhh I'm just so happy! Even though I'm not seeing him again til next friday and we wont see each other every week, this doesnt bother me! We have the best conversations on msn and on the phone and we both make exactly the same amount of effort which is how it should be! we're even already planning a holiday together and he's taking me to see Chicago soon AND hopefully The Cribs in December!

Totally smitten, but not going to let it get in the way of enjoying uni life and neither is he. I'm having SUCH a good time with my girls and it's nice to finally be able to trust someone again and be utterly 100% happy.

I hope you're all well and enjoying university and whatever you're doing! love to you all x

Hey ladies!

Just thought I better post something on here before i go on my holidays! Leaving for the airport in just under an hour :) I'm really quite excited! Portugal, never been, it'll be good to go somewhere different and to get a break. I've had such a good summer, I'm going to miss everyone! only away for just over a week though so i'll be back before i know it. As most of you on here know, i met up with Gordon on Tuesday! haha still can't get over his name! we had a really cool time together, went to liverpool shopping, went for a couple of drinks in the bar where the beatles used to play as well which was very exciting! Then we went for Nando's, went back to his and watched a will ferrell film (we both love anchorman!) so yeah had a really good time, he's such a nice guy, really good looking and we got along really well. after i came home, we didn't speak much, which i wasn't tooooo bothered about but i kinda wanted to know where i stood a litte bit. so we talked, and he came out with 'i told you i didn't want a relationship'...so i was like ohhh...ok?! I don't remember him saying that at all, plus, i met him on OkCupid. And his profile said he was just about ready to love again. So yeah, i don't particularly want a relationship with him, i don't know what i want, but i know that i don't want there to be NO chance whatsoever. He said he really liked me and wants to come see me when he has money (which will be in er...november. cos of his holiday) but that was just gonna be it, and he thought i wanted the same. So yeah its  a bit shit, i was a bit gutted, but now i'm just like 'we had fun, we might meet up again, lets just see what happens'. Cos i enjoy talking to him and everything.

It's probably for the best though, he has a psycho ex girlfriend who i think would probably try and kill me if she knew he was seeing me.

Oh and guess what guys? Daniel is on OkCupid. I found him on my stalkers list  (it shows you who's looked at your profile). Guess when he joined? August. OF LAST YEAR.

Urghh! What a nob. He's so pathetic, I can't actually get over what a loser he is. So i just sent him a message saying 'Joined august last year huh? nice daniel, real nice.'

I couldn't honestly care less. He's welcome to whoever he's seeing...which by the way, is the girl he cheated on me with over the internet. who looks like she's about 13. so whether he met her on there or not who knows. i wouldn't be surprised if he was doing exactly the same thing since he joined. He doesn't deserve a nice girl, he's obviously one of those people who can't be without a girlfriend. i wasn't enough for him, he still had to look elsewhere for a bit of a booty call. Men are just ridiculous, do they ever know what they want?!

Anyhoo, after that rant...! I hope you all have a good week or so, and if you're going on holiday then have a great time! Those of you who's addresses i know, i will send you a postcard!

Lots of love, xxx

I haven't posted on here for sooooooooooo long! It's time for an update people, brace yourselves :P 
Well the past month or so has been a bit of a whirlwind! And also...it's july? Umm hello, where did this year go please?! As most of you know I'm sure, Daniel and I broke up around a month ago (woah, thats gone QUICK!) and things are actually great. I'm not saying I've been fine about it, it was really hard for like....5 minutes. haha! no, seriously, he cheated on me. again. it wasn't cool. so i ended it. and now im single and actually LOVING IT. It's so good! it's weird how fast i've got over it though, i guess when someone does something that is so horrific, something you could never imagine them doing, you look at them in an entirely different way. I look at him with disgust really to be honest. I'm on good terms with him i guess, but we're not really talking. Last time we spoke, he had been electrocuted at work :S yeah i know...claire was like "is it bad that i have no sympathy for him at all?". I did a little bit, cos he said he was sore and stuff. But it was weird cos we ended up talking a little bit about what happened, and he was like "I still love you and I always will". Which shocked me a bit, cos he's not contacted me at all, (neither have i...but still) and he just hasnt seemed bothered. So yeah, I didn't say I loved him back, mainly because I don't think I actually do. That might be cos I havent seen him. But i dont care. I'm just moving on with my life and having an amazing time with my friends. Just been away for the weekend with Nat, Lauren and Claire to birmingham, and it's actually just been the best weekend ever!! We had so much fun, went out 2 nights in a row and went to cadburys world, went out for a meal, went shopping. I love them, they keep me grounded and make me laugh so much! Also went to birmingham the other week too with my uni girls, it was so lovely to see them. I'm acually all brummed out. I find myself feeling a lot more confident in myself which is strange, I thought i'd feel really low and my self esteem would just plummet, but it hasn't! IM STRONG. :D

Mally, I want you to email me please. We havent talked in so long, I miss you and want to know stuff! Also, at cadbury world, i looked for some twirls, but they didnt have anything cool like twirl pencils. just the chocolate bars. i will buy you one and send it over. ! love you.

Hope you're all enjoying your summer! Make the most of it :) 

I'm going to copy  Lucy and do a things to do over summer list-yay!

1) Pass these flaming exams and work on my shorthand.
2) Visit all my uni girls in Birmingham, Milton Keynes and Grimsby and make sure they come stay in Leeds with Becky and I.
3) Work loads and try to save £50 a week to go towards my second year at uni.
4) Go to Glasgow on a road trip and stay in Lauren's new flat for next year.
5) Go away for a weekend with Daniel if he can get the time off work.
6) Try not to let my brothers/parents get to me when times get tough at home.
7) Have a BBQ.
8) Meet up with the school crew both before and after Libby gets back from New Zealand.
9) Talk to Mally more.
10) Go out for my birthday.
11) Go to Alton Towers/Flaminge.
12) HAVE FUN :D 

It's so bad, but I really can't be bothered with some people anymore. I want to care, but I don't...I feel nothing.

I'm going out tonight with a load of people, most of I've only known for a short while...But they appreciate me and make me feel wanted and I like that feeling :) I'm really looking forward to it. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO WEARRRRR.

And i'm enjoying working at Salvo's! It's fun, even though its tiring.

Nap time :) x

Hello.

It's been a while since i wrote on here...again! Always the case really. I'm home for Easter atm, nearly 2 weeks have gone by already which is quite frightening! I will be back in Leicester in just over a week, but probably not for very long, depending on exams. I know that i have an exam on 30th April and then 8th June, but not sure when my 3rd one is. Hopefully soon after the first one but we'll see. So i'll probably be able to come home between those dates. I'm a bit mixed about going back, as per usual-my feelings are always mixed, i never seem to feel just one emotion! I can't wait to see my uni friends, but I'm actually loving being home. Obviously leaving Daniel will be hard, and my family too. But then i'll probs be back within a few weeks at the most, so its not so daunting. I JUST DON'T KNOW. I'm not looking forward to exams either, i have to pass this time, i dont want to keep re sitting them! and that thought, that pressure is really difficult to deal with. I wish i was clever.

Been pretty busy so far these hols, got myself a job 2 shifts a week at Salvo's restaurant where i worked when i was 15/16. It's really fun, the people are so laid back there and i feel like i fit in-completely different to 3 years ago. Seen Daniel a few times, not as much as i would've liked, as he is working long hours, but still, we've been able to see each other at least twice a week, which is pretty good going. It's our 2 year anniversary next thursday so i'm hoping he can get the day off (he said he'll pretend to be ill if he cant lol) and we can do something special. Talking about Daniel...went to his yesterday. And stayed over. We were just chilling, he'd gone to get something or go to the loo, and i was on his laptop downloading some Goo Goo Dolls for him (hi becky) and i was checking out his pics. Then i noticed something unusual in his received files...a picture of some girl-really skinng, blonde, VERY pretty, much more attractive than me. and i was like errr wtf who his that please!? So i obviously asked him, and he was just all twitchy and like 'oh that's from ages ago', and not giving me a straight answer. He just gave me a hug and looked really concerned cos i was getting a bit worked up, he just held onto me and told me he loved me and that i can trust him. So i was like...ok but you still havent told me who she is?! Then he told me she was an old mate's new girlfriend and he'd sent him a pic of her. Which is a perfectly viable explanation, and if it hadn't taken him about 5 minutes to tell me that, i would've had no doubts whatsoever. He said that was because he was getting all flustered cos i was mad, and he didn't know what to do. So i just let it go, he could understand why i jumped to conclusions...whatever those conclusions were...i still dont know myself! and i didn't want it to spoil our day together so i just let it go. I was a bit quiet a couple of hours after i think,  but eventually i just forgot about it and focused on having fun. We went to town and he took me to the cinema, then we came home, had fish and chips and went out with some mutual friends which was really fun. Nothing has been mentioned since, but I still have doubts and i don't know what to do, i dont want to bring it up again cos its hard enough not being able to see him, let alone have an argument, or risk an argument. I do trust him...I guess I'm still in shock cos I wasn't expecting to find anything like that...hmmm...its a dilemma.

Going out for a drink with Tash and her new boyfriend in an hour, Dan's meeting us after work. So that should be fun. but i dont know what to do, i really want to talk to him about it, but like i said, im scared of bringing it up, especially now that things are really good with us.

:S

I seriously am in a bit of a muddle. Have no idea what to do or how to go about it :( Basically, Daniel has this new job at a restaurant, just washing up etc. Its pretty good money though..and its like hoorah, he finally has a job that will pay off his debts and he'll be able to do stuff now! but the hours are 10am-10pm. Every day of the week. Basically. SHIT. I don't know if its weekends as well, but thats the busiest time so i'm presuming he will have to work a few. So when am i going to see him i hear you ask? I have to say, i'm asking myself exactly the same question. His theory: He has two 2 hour breaks...and I can come visit him then. 2 hours doing what? walking round town with nothing to do? oh great.

:( 

It's seriously rubbish! I've texted him saying we need to talk about it, cos if i get a job/work shifts where i used to work, then we will actually never see each other. And whats the point in that?!

I don't know how to go about it though, because it'll probs end up in an argument. He's so laid back about things, which can be a good thing, but in this case...not so much. He'll just be like 'well i cant do anything about it so we'll just have to deal with it'. I hate it when he says that, cos its like i dont want to deal with it! I am refusing to deal with not seeing him at all. Or just once a week for 2 hours. It sucks, and even if we did see each other, we wouldnt even be able to talk on the phone, apart from on his way to and from work. So it'd just be the noise of a bus in the background.

I don't know what to do. I guess we just need to talk, I just want to ask him if there's any chance he could alter those hours, like perhaps have a day off a week, or say work 3 days 10am-10pm and then the other two just the day shift, or just the evening. Or 2 days off and not work weekends. or 2 days off and work weekends. THERE ARE SO MANY POSSIBILITIES. But knowing him, or the situation, it won't work out that way and we'll be stuck. I have 3 weeks off at easter, and i am not going to see my boyfriend. This sucks and i want to cry. In fact, I am.

UGH. Things were going so well too :( le poo.

Hello everyone, I hope you've had a good weekend!

I HAVE :D Went home as it was my baby's birthday (Daniel, not Oscar) and even though its only a week til we break up for easter, I felt that it would be nice if i was there. it's weird though, cos we will have been together for 2 years next month (day after Mally's birthday :P) and I haven't been there for any of his birthdays! Cos last year we had broken up. So it was really nice, he didn't do much but we had fajitas last night and a yummy roast dinner for lunch today! and we went into town so he could spend his birthday money. I bought him the new James Bond DVD and a mini snooker table...I BEAT HIM FIRST TIME. yayer.

Back in lesta now, i feel really weird! i think its lonelyness, after being surrounded by family, and having Daniel to cuddle all day. Oh well only a few days to go and then im hooooooooooooooooooome.

Umm...nothing else too interesting to say really! Still awaiting law results from thurs...doubt very much that I've passed, as it was quite difficult in parts, and law does NOT seem to be my forte. Well the exam anyway, I really like learning it and find it so interesting and obviously its vital that we learn it, but the exam format is too weird for my liking.

Anyhoo i may either go to bed or tidy room and wash up. I would ring Daniel but it's his birthday still and I wouldn't want to disrupt his Resident Evil playing. lol.
lots of love x